Monday, March 3, 2008
My fucking blogger is ultra lag!!!!!
or maybe the whole fucking server! I WANT MY OWN WEB HOSTING
i swear when my posb card hits $500 i will apply!
Today sucha bad day . over some class issues! Fuck your mother pussy. argh waste my fucking breath!
I am so not gonna go sch since i am so bored of everything
Life have been cruel to me all along, nothing seems to be very right for me.
Broken thorns , unfixing pieces of broken glasses.
How am i gonna live that far with withered roses of love?
Just trying to fixed up the broken pieces and sticking it back one by one.
With the transparent shade of glue that dropped on the floor
sticking the sadness and ugly memories by me always.
which didn't even take a look how i am right now.
Feeling uneasy always , trying to change what i could be and what i was.
i thought you will be here, curing all my pain.
Maybe is just a another way round of love that filled with awful pain and fear
Which i myself yet don't know what to do.
I thought i could treat life as a challenge to give more , expect less.
Forgive and forget, yet i'm just a another pathetic loser too.
Giving up everything i have because of you
I feel raindrops keep dripping one by one on my head.
signals me that i missed you each day longer.
living a life.. just terribley alone even thought you'll be here.
Not understanding a single thing.
A sad memory to pass thru my heart, a sorrow , a fear , a pain.
i myself feel paralyzed and numb all over.
how i feel now, in myself
Is just a piece of silence , without you calling me.
trying to wake myself with everything i could.
ain't i naive or barely ignorant? i hate myself for blaming you
and blaming the people around me.
i'm just another problematic no use person.
who don't deserves any respect from anyone.
I'm sorry for the post up there.
Everything is written by me.
so please do not take it as a song and copy paste.
(sorry for spelling mistakes >< )
lotsa love.
or maybe the whole fucking server! I WANT MY OWN WEB HOSTING
i swear when my posb card hits $500 i will apply!
Today sucha bad day . over some class issues! Fuck your mother pussy. argh waste my fucking breath!
I am so not gonna go sch since i am so bored of everything
Life have been cruel to me all along, nothing seems to be very right for me.
Broken thorns , unfixing pieces of broken glasses.
How am i gonna live that far with withered roses of love?
Just trying to fixed up the broken pieces and sticking it back one by one.
With the transparent shade of glue that dropped on the floor
sticking the sadness and ugly memories by me always.
which didn't even take a look how i am right now.
Feeling uneasy always , trying to change what i could be and what i was.
i thought you will be here, curing all my pain.
Maybe is just a another way round of love that filled with awful pain and fear
Which i myself yet don't know what to do.
I thought i could treat life as a challenge to give more , expect less.
Forgive and forget, yet i'm just a another pathetic loser too.
Giving up everything i have because of you
I feel raindrops keep dripping one by one on my head.
signals me that i missed you each day longer.
living a life.. just terribley alone even thought you'll be here.
Not understanding a single thing.
A sad memory to pass thru my heart, a sorrow , a fear , a pain.
i myself feel paralyzed and numb all over.
how i feel now, in myself
Is just a piece of silence , without you calling me.
trying to wake myself with everything i could.
ain't i naive or barely ignorant? i hate myself for blaming you
and blaming the people around me.
i'm just another problematic no use person.
who don't deserves any respect from anyone.
I'm sorry for the post up there.
Everything is written by me.
so please do not take it as a song and copy paste.
(sorry for spelling mistakes >< )
lotsa love.
GIRL LA!!!!!!
6:14 AM
Chanel
